The beginning

OH yes, what a wonderful day.
I was in a lot of pain this morning and took my meds as normal. I then sat on the sofa trying to crochet but to no avail as all I could do was keep falling asleep. Do you know what it is like to fall asleep with your eyes open every few seconds - my husband was talking to me and my eyes were open but I was asleep. A bit like narcolepsy I suppose - but this is down to getting used to my new pain meds.
I have just done exactly the same while writing this in. hahah
I went onto Etsy this afternoon - wonderful - I managed to get 2 beautiful hand made dolls with needle stitched faces, and the seller even managed to alter the shipping on one so I could order it. Ah that is so good when some people can be so helpful to you.

Now to the 'Its my life'
This is my blog because I will be going into hospital in 5 weeks (october 11th) for a spinal fusion and decompression operation on my lumbar spine. A little frightening even when you are my age (49).
Its a long op and has a 65% success rate apparently, but that it better than slowly getting worse and worse and having more and more pain that the opiate drugs do not seem to touch.  So I thought that if I blogged about it - then it might help me to face my fears and attack it with my usual big smile and happy face, so here I am.
I dont know how long I will keep this up - I have never done a blog before, but I hope to keep it up all through the recovery period so it might be of help to others who are having this operation.

For me - my aim is to come out of this and be able to throw away my crutches, get off disability and get back to some kind of work again as I really do miss working.I know I will not get back to my old job of veterinary nurse, but any work will do after 3 years of enforced laziness and non stop 24/7 pain. So here we go. This is my very first blog and I will see how far along I can keep this up. For now though, I have to stop as I need another tablet and some food. So I will return tomorrow and carry on